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Last day off. Totally sien.

I felt weird today. Felt sudden emptiness, so deep I can’t describe. I felt lost, blinded by darkness that I couldn’t find the way. This is really saddening. This is so not me. Depression, emptiness just aren’t my style. I seem to be happy all the time, singing, laughing and joking. Unless it is bloody early in the morning, all i’ve got is a dick face.

What’s bothering me? I felt like all I’ve got it’s only me and myself. For a minute, I just want to talk to everyone to get rid of this feeling then just another second, I felt like I wanna be left alone, not wanting to be bothered by anyone. Maybe I’ve felt this emptiness all the years, just that I’ve been filling the holes with excitement, laughter and pretendence. Or perhaps it’s just my hormones, period soon…..haha.

On a lighter note, went to Wirral food and drink festival today. It was fun, seeing all kinds of food, drinks and shamelessly trying out most of the food. There were different type of cheeses, chocolates, extremely awesome cakes, super-tasty lasagna and bla bla bla…..

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Those chocolate cakes are devilishly tempting and the bigass piece of beef is really killing me. Perhaps that’s why I felt emptiness today, not being able to taste those food, empty in the stomach……..

I lost fifty pence in TAI DI last night. Haha. Losing to 赌神 and his 徒弟. I’ll revenge soon.

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I was only allowed to take pic from the back. They wanted to remain low profile.

 

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