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Last day off. Totally sien.

I felt weird today. Felt sudden emptiness, so deep I can’t describe. I felt lost, blinded by darkness that I couldn’t find the way. This is really saddening. This is so not me. Depression, emptiness just aren’t my style. I seem to be happy all the time, singing, laughing and joking. Unless it is bloody early in the morning, all i’ve got is a dick face.

What’s bothering me? I felt like all I’ve got it’s only me and myself. For a minute, I just want to talk to everyone to get rid of this feeling then just another second, I felt like I wanna be left alone, not wanting to be bothered by anyone. Maybe I’ve felt this emptiness all the years, just that I’ve been filling the holes with excitement, laughter and pretendence. Or perhaps it’s just my hormones, period soon…..haha.

On a lighter note, went to Wirral food and drink festival today. It was fun, seeing all kinds of food, drinks and shamelessly trying out most of the food. There were different type of cheeses, chocolates, extremely awesome cakes, super-tasty lasagna and bla bla bla…..

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Those chocolate cakes are devilishly tempting and the bigass piece of beef is really killing me. Perhaps that’s why I felt emptiness today, not being able to taste those food, empty in the stomach……..

I lost fifty pence in TAI DI last night. Haha. Losing to 赌神 and his 徒弟. I’ll revenge soon.

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I was only allowed to take pic from the back. They wanted to remain low profile.

I LOVE MY SUNNIES. DAMN COOL. EVERYONE IS LOOKING COOL WITH IT.

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ROCKER CHIC
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BAJA HITAM
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SAMSENG TAO
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I’M 伟哥，WAT THE FUCK ARE U LOOKING AT?
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COOLEST DUDE!!..SIBEH CHIO….
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**FRIDAY**FRIDAY**FRIDAY**FRIDAY**FRIDAY**

No classes on friday, it’s the beginning of weekend, and next monday is a holiday!! I’m gonna have four days off, how pleased could it be?? I’ve been counting down for this break since tuesday. Though I’ve just had my holidays few days back, but after studying for three days, I think it’s time for another break. Serious shit, break is what I need the most right now. I love the time schedule here, no classes on fridays and weekends.

I think I do have serious problem. I’m so lazy, I’ve done nothing except daydreaming for the past three days. Tsk, tsk, hopeless. My course will be ending in just few days and still….not concentrating on studies, sleeping in classes and bla bla bla. Achieve absolutely nothing.

I’m such a fucked up.

What if next time i got a 9-5 job, working from mon to sat and may be even on sunday, overtime working…..I can’t imagine this. I’ll be so overstressed. My hair will start falling down, getting bold by the age of 26, not having enough sleep that I’ll look so old, bitching and complaining each every single day. Nermind, nermind…. all these will be fine with the condition that I’m earning millions every month. But what if it’s just two thousands  per month or even worst, less that 2K. Aiyer…totally cannot.

OH MY GOD

I think I’ll better continue with study.

Maybe taking master program….

or research student….

then pursue PhD….

then take another degree….

another degree??

another one…..making it quadruple degree??

Bloody crap. Hai, it’s 4 days off. I should definitely plan a trip.

I need to confess……….
I have not washed my hair for a week!
Ok. This sounds really gross. I have no idea why

I must confess………….
about not washing my hair, i did that on purpose….-_-’"
I think my hair grow real nice when i’m not washing it. I really hope the hair get jumbled and tangled together so it grow dreadlocks. I’m so obsessed with dreadlocks!!! If I have not been washing it for like…erm…a year?! perhaps i’ll have nice natural locks i’ve been dying for. Then, i can save up RM800++ which is the price for getting a nice dreadlocks done in saloon. Hopefully i won’t ended up with severe dandruff problem.
So sick. Smack me, for having this fanatical desire….

I ought to confess…………
I’m a devil in disguise. I’m an angel with a devil’s heart. I’m wicked.
I love to smile laugh at people and making fun at others. I LOVE backstabbing and most of all, I multi-faced. All of these are so common that i’m adopting them as habits. Multi-faced is the most wicked thing I’ve done. I want to make life unpleasant for everyone and create chaos. I’m as evil as anything could be. I deserve to be in hell.

I should confess………….
To contrary belief, I’m also a nice, loving, friendly person. No shit. I’m shamelessly admitting that I’m adored by everyone around me. I’m everyone’s nicest friend and the best companion they ever have.

Me and ah tan was trying out this Celebrity-face-recognition that he got from his source the other day. It’s a program where you upload ya picture and it checks out which celebrity you resemble the most. It was fun.

This was my first try. I actually look like *ahem* Jamie cullum. Muahahaha….awesome. I’m good-looking and that’s what I always believe in. It must be that big bright sunshine smile. This program is brilliant!!

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2nd try. I look like Song Hye Kyo. In case you dunno who she is, she’s the actress in korean drama - ‘Full house’. Haha, this is unbelievable. Gosh, I really need to accept the fact that I’m so handsome that the program can’t even find any male celebrities that I resembled to. *ahem*.
When I tried for the third picture, *dang*, me and ah tan laughed till we’re choking out. It’s Diana Ross this time…. -_-"’

SO, it’s not as brilliant as i think it is. Except for the jamie cullum part. Next time when you see jamie cullum singing, imagine it’s me. No, It’s actually me. It’s so me cause I have the jamie-cullum-singing-talent-style. Just forget about Diana Ross. When you’re watching Full house, imagine it’s like this…..

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Don’t get jealous cause I look like Song Hye Kyo. *puke*
Do try out the program. Fun to play with. Especially when you’re moodless.

Gray.
My color.
Summer ends soon.
Going back soon.